The music influences some people in different ways. Some live the life style meaning dress or look alike and others think and interact in everyday life to the music they listen to. The music “Dona Nobis Pacem” by Ralph Vaughan Willams is very emotional music. Made me think not think not about music instead about my past. In front of my eyes all sad parts of my life was passing like I was choosing photos from computer to print in physical form.

It made me more of the think about my past and touched my feelings like I did committed crime.(01:20 – 02:15) At some point my feelings calms when music clams and then again it puts pressure on me, in other words while I am think about some memory at slow motion of the music, and when it picks up it brings even more feelings where it made think why I did not think about conscious, however knowing that everything will be better in the future still this music leaves some kind a marks behind where I dig the same spot. Meaning I think same memories over and over.

Thinking the past made me feel sorry to myself and at some point the music made me think, either I would have to live the with the pain where I am at right now. (03:10 – 04:00) However, right after dynamic picked up and made me think like I am trying to change or have some effect on the future and how hard it is to come back from where I am. Which gave me some kind hope that I will and I can do it and change my future to the brighter side. This was in the middle of the music. This music is very hard to understand, meaning thinking negative made me feel very bad and at some point I tried to thing positive but still it had some kind negativity. (04:00 – 06:00)

At the end of the music it made feel like thinking my past, I am completely losing myself and everything changes to the worst side and I cannot do anything to change it or no other way to come out (no outlet) from where I am. Everything gets worst and worst, it like I was sinking in the mud where my legs were already in mud but I still rest of my body was out so it should not be so hard to survive but music just killed my inspiration. Listening this music from the beginning I knew it’s very sad.

I am type of person that I like kind slow and fast music mixed. I listen to music to think and have better thoughts or motivate and direct myself to something that I do not want to do. I am not so interested in music, since I wasn`t I would not expect music can lead to something very emotional and reminding pain or happiness. Lately I used it to have some patients and not to make any more mistakes, just give myself where I was and where I am now. I was writing my essay with music playing over and over, but this music made big impact on me like I was kind lost even writing this essay. I had so many thoughts that I could not put them in order and write them on the paper.